Two Years.

We all know that feeling of investing so much into something or somewhere and still feel like you're coming short. That's exactly how I am feeling lately. I have been working for this company for a three weeks short of two years and I put my all into everything I do and feel like I always take that extra step; however, my two year evaluation is coming up and I do not feel so great. I was pulled aside for a meeting with my direct supervisor last week and she basically said I've lost a bit of my willingness to help and my "peppiness." I almost feel hurt because I feel like I have fallen into a rut but have been trying extremely hard to pull myself out. She told me she was worried because my evaluation is coming up and that almost makes me feel like my job may be in jeopardy. It sucks because I have put so much into my position there and I know I can get out of this. I have been trying extra hard to get my pep back but I don't know how that is going. Hopefully, I find it soon and start kicking butt again.